The first time is always the hardest.
In my line of work (or, at least the line of work I wish to be in) anonymity is paramount. Many of my friends and acquaintances have incredibly restricted Facebook profiles, mostly with pictures obscuring their faces. They give little detail, and what is offered up is superficial to the point of teasing whoever chooses to look at it with nefarious intention. It seems to come with the job.
I was ready to live this lifestyle; posting cheerful, carefully crafted updates and constantly refining what others could see of me until they could see very little became my modus operandi. After all, it was better to be safe than sorry. What a way to live.
The truth is I have wanted to begin a project like this for a long time. I was worried about what others would think but in the end, this concern over opinions that will likely never form is emotionally exhausting to contemplate. Simply put, holding back because of what others may think (may being the operative word, because I don’t expect this tumblr to become an international sensation) is not something I wish to do anymore.
Who knows how long that feeling will last. I may wake up tomorrow and decide to never post again. I may write and share thoughts for a few months before something else catches my eye. For now though, I cannot wait to get started.
-e